Wednesday, June 15, 2011
Work was rather bland yesterday. There are changes brewing and some significant M&A activity pending which just means everything else is on hold til any acquisitions are announced. Plus my boss stopped by yesterday and hinted he has some major changes in the works for my next assignment. ok. whatever. blah. Right now, I'm trying to get more staff hired & a couple of key promotions through the system but its all on hold til the dust settles. So, I'm rather unfocused at the office right now & spent most of yesterday trolling through new lapband blogs. Read several from start to finish. Love that! It's like watching an entire season of a favorite TV show in one sitting. So many good stories out there. So much inspiration!
Took me about 45minutes to get home. Enough time to clear the cobwebs from my mind but mostly just to feel. To reflect. To emote. To feel emotions. This is not one of my strong suits. I know that - I've always swallowed my emotions. Along with copious amounts of chocolate & carbs. Its how I ended up with the Lapband. Going into this journey, I knew dealing with my emotions & facing my feelings was going to be a major hurdle for me. And here I am. Trying to learn to identify, parse out, sort & sift through my feelings...without eating.
So, why the emoting? Well, a very close friend is leaving. Her husband got an amazing job on the East Coast & they will be moving by the end of the summer. It's a great offer & she has to go. In my head, I understand this but my heart just hurts. I have a lot of acquaintances but very few close, close friends. This lady that is leaving is tops of that select circle. It also makes me step back & ponder why I have such a small inner circle. As a rule, I tend to be very private and slow to share my real self with people (notable exception is this blog - but, then, again its anonymous. You don't think my name is really Chloe, do you?) Even those closest to me would describe me as "prickly." Perhaps I need to expand my circle? Perhaps I need to let a few walls down?
Finally, a shoutout & sincere thank you to Ronnie & her fabulous followers for your support & blogger love after my Binge post. You ladies rock! :)