...or should I say chickadee in the singular since I'm sure no one checks this blog anymore? That is ok - you've moved on and frankly, so have I. Which means its time for me to shut this blog down. I've just hit 2 years since getting banded and this seems like a good time to mark the milestone, wrap this phase of my my life up and say good-bye. In an uncharacteristically Chloe move, I am even going to publish pics of me & my family. Hope you enjoy it :)
I know conventional wisdom is that people stop blogging about WLS because they've fallen off the wagon and gained a bunch of weight back. Happy to report that this is not the case for me. I'm still bouncing between 146-148lbs just like I have been for the past 8-10months. I wear a size 6. :) Still love the sound of that.
On the other hand, I believe exercise is the key to successful maintenance. It provides more wiggle room in the diet to still keep the scale steady. I do think exercising does help during active weight loss as a distraction. If I go to the gym for 2 hours then that is 2 hours I'm not near my pantry. Plus all the toning really helps lift the booty and the confidence.
How's life with the band? I knew when I shelled 10 grand out of my own pocket to do this surgery that I was ready and willing to make big changes. I knew I could lose weight - I had a million times before. What I didn't know was if I could keep it off. Now that I am maintaining, I find the band to be at its most helpful. It does something I'd never been able to do on my own - it keeps my portions in check. I haven't had a fill in nearly a year and I still can only eat a little bit at a time. I think Cat just had a post about how the band helps level the playing field between her & food. Yes. Exactly. Ditto. But as you know, the worst foods slide down so easily which means I gotta bring some willpower of my own to the table. The band can't do it all for me....or for you. Own up to that fact. people.
Any unexpected changes after losing the weight? A huge change for me has been how integral fitness has become in my life. Somewhere during this process going to the gym stopped being a chore and became a relief. Sweating became more critical for my mental health than my physical health. My version of happy pills, I suppose. My husband & I are just so much more active today than in the past. We did a 4 mile Turkey Trot at Thanksgiving. There is a Resolution 5k on NYE plus a Commitment 5k on New Year's morning that we're going to run. A good friend who is a big cyclist just came through town and he'll be back in May for the Elephant Rock ride. E-Rock is the unofficial opening of racing season here in Denver. I was agitating for the 62mile ride since I doubt I'll be able to get much outdoor training time in before the race but the guys want to do the full century right out of the gate...that's probably what we'll do. Also, I want to do the Copper Triangle ride with my husband this summer - 3 mountain passes, 6000 feet elevation gain and 80 miles. Plus, I'd like to do an Olympic distance triathlon, do Venus de Miles century again, blah, blah, blah....
|Turkey Trot 2012|
Learning to bare my emotions and face my feelings - both good & bad - has been the hardest part of the struggle for me. I think it will be this way for the rest of my life.
How to stay committed? Other than wanting to still fit into the thousands of dollars in gorgeous new clothes I've filled my closet with (for the first time ever, I even let my husband buy me clothes), I believe all of us on this journey need a "powerful why" to help us stay on track when the motivation inevitably dips. Getting healthy and staying healthy so I can be around to take care of my daughter for many years to come is my most powerful why. What's yours?
|My daughter - my powerful why|
|Halloween 2012 as the Flintsones|
|My love bugs!|
|My 40th bday|
|Hubs bought me a great, sexy dress for Xmas!|
What's next? I don't think I'll ever be done with this journey but I'm proud to say I've met my goals and now its time to move onto other life projects. Thankfully, the hubs has fully recovered from his medical scare over the summer. whew! My daughter's health is starting to get a little precarious, tho'. Her scoliosis has dramatically worsened in the last few months and we're facing spinal fusion at the end of January. Its a 6-hour surgery where they will open up her back from neck to butt crack, fuse the vertebrae and insert rods, wires & screws to straighten out her spine. After surgery, she'll be in ICU for a few days, then in the hospital for about 10 days, then home from school for 4-6 weeks and then recovery will take 6months - 1 year. Its as scary as it sounds. She's had several surgeries in the past but this one will the most extensive and invasive to date. I'm a wreck!
Also, I am deeply unhappy at work. I need to muster the courage to dream big dreams and make a big leap in my career. My best friend suggested "ChloesClimbUp" and I really like it. No reason not to act....look at what I am capable of!
|Where I started - never going back!|
Happy New Year.
Wishing you success, peace & joy.