Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Monday (Tuesday, actually) weigh-in: 175.6lbs!
down since last weigh-in: I have no idea
Truly, its hard for me to process. I broke this journey into little mini-chunklets of 10% or 8lbs each. The mini-goals definitely help me not be overwhelmed about how far I have to go (sample convo in my head....self: skip the chocolate since you only have 3lbs to go to next goal.......rather than self: swing by DQ for a large malt since you have 80lbs to go and its so far away). However, the mini-goals kind of obscure big milestones like this one so it hasn't really sunk in yet.
Don't you just love Bigger Loser? Those girls are amazing.....still losing 4lbs/week even this far along. I was admiring that all the girls are in the 140s now which is my ultimate goal. Wonder what I will look like then?
Sorry no posts last week - I was in southeast Asia on business. The trip was ok. I think I was expecting a lot more from Singapore but it just felt like any other city. However, the food was simply amazing. So many different cuisines to chose from; so many spices & flavors. I was only there 3 days but every meal - highend to street hawker - was fantastic. Most of it was actually quite band-friendly, too. Most meals are served family style so you can just take a bite or two from each dish. Plus, lots of fish & not really any desserts. mmmmmm, chili crab. excellent!
The travel days were just long - 30hours to get home. Bad airplane food is universal. I find myself hoarding food in these situations. You should have seen all crap I had stuffed in my purse! The stress eater in me comes out, too. I do confess to a chocolate shake at O'Hare when the flight from Hong Kong was late & I missed my connection home by 5minutes. That miss added 3 hours to my overlong journey. sigh.
One thing that struck me on this trip was the loss of an old friend - comfort food. For me, there is no longer comfort in food. This fact is still sinking into my fat-brain. In fact, when I treat food poorly (eating too fast, not chewing well, big bites, bad food choices) there is actually more pain involved than comfort. How pavlovian. I feel like I am just coming around to this reality. I feel like I am still fighting or resisting this reality. I guess I'm into the real work of breaking a lifetime of bad habits. Success will be measured in how long I go between stuck & PB episodes. I do believe these are not supposed to be a routine part of life with the lapband. I see these events as signals that my behavior needs to change.
I'm so glad to be home - I'm much better with a consistent routine. Get up, have protein shake while getting ready for work, a cup of tea mid-morning, lite lunch, greek yogurt or some snack late afternoon, hit the gym for cardio & weights, quick dinner, bed. Rinse & repeat. Travel just throws me off.....
....and there is more to come. While I was in Singapore, I got notified that the next big trip is in the works for mid-June. Around the world in two weeks. Literally. Europe leg one week & Asia leg the next. I sit down with my colleagues tomorrow to hash out trip coverage. Lets see how much of it I can weasel out of...this year was really supposed to be for me to dial down a bit on the work front in order invest in Project Me.
As a reminder, lets shout today's success one more time...